MRS. that REJN so SHAMELESS

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2009-01-21T14:38:00.000-08:00

just dropping by.

imy people.
-rejn

NEW FAIRYTALE!!!

2008-12-20T06:57:00.000-08:00

I'M IN
LOVE.

with my new special someone.
I'M FALLING FOR YOU PRINCE! :)

P.S.
i'm in davao right now. but i won't stay for long.
i came here just to take the entrance exam in San Pedro College but unfortunately.WALANG EXAM! ang sama.hmpf!
anyways.
i miss my blogmates here in blogger.
mixoo all especially my ATE'S and KUYA'S
senxa.di na naman ako makakatagal.
aalis na naman ako ngayong 12mn pauwi sa province namin.huhu.
take care poh. *mwah! *hug*
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

Je suis de retour

2008-09-15T15:59:00.000-07:00

hi!now i'm back.its been a very long time since i visited my blog.*sigh.tsk3.

je vous manque tout!!!!(i miss you all).huhuhu.

i can't stay longer 'cause tomorrow i'll be back in our province 'cause i need to go back to school.huhu.anyways.there's A LOT of changes happened to my friends here since i left.from their HAIR to the tip of their TOENAIL'S.some have their hair longer and some have it shorter.hahaha.USO NA NGA RIN ANG BANGS SA KANILA.bwahahaha.may tumaba at may sumexy.hahaha.may tumangkad at may....hmmm.wala palang lumiit.haha! :-)
when i saw them yesterday,i said to my self "grabe naman talaga ang oras.nakakabago talaga ng tao.not only physically but also emotionally and mentally." hihihi.actually.natawa ako sa mga reactions ng mga kaibigan ko khapon when they saw me.and i was shocked because when they saw me they really hugged me SO VERY VERY VERY tight and they keep on saying those words "i miss you","we miss you so much!".bwahahahaha.sabi nila tumaba ako.hmf!but i didn't believe them kase imposibleng tataba ako eh grabe ang exercise ko dun sa paglalaro ng tennis at table tennis.hmf!pero grabe din ako kung kumain.bwahahaha!

I TOTALLY LOVE MY FRIENDS AND THEY TOTALLY LOVE ME TOO.SO MUCH.

meron pa!ang BF ko.hahaha.a BIG change talaga.he gained weight but not that TABA ha.he's more like chubby right now but not a chubby look but more like macho look.haha.i was also shocked when i saw him 'cause i never thought na totoo pala yung sinabi niya sakin na tumaba siya.hihihi.pero okay lang.i still love...his body.hahaha.him pala. XD

haaaay.i hope time runs faster that it could run faster than the speed of light so that after this day,we'll see each other again.huhuhu.i know 6 months will not be that long for us but i don't want to spend another happy moments WITHOUT THEM especially MY HUBBY.hmf!

'til here nalang.senxa sa mga hindi ko na nabigyan ng comment ha.i don't have time na kase.but don't worry.i still miss you all.hehehe.if you need something text me nalang mga kuya's and ate's
here: 09282769270
please inform me kung sino kayo ha.so that i can identify you.
sige.bye! *mwah! <3>

Keeping me in your arms

2008-05-07T10:40:00.000-07:00

I think I get it now, what you think when you think of me. I'm sorry I'm this way,I really am,It's true. But I know it must tear you up to realize I've grown up,I've changed and that the road you set me on was a mile the other way. I don't really hate life like I tend to say. It doesn't always suck not each and every day. I know you think that I'm gone, the little girl you lovedseems dead . I want to be that little girl again,the one who hugged you tight and never let go,the one who looked up to you. I wish you realized I still do. Now I know why you told me to come to you and why it was so important and why everything I did was such a big deal. It must have broke your heart,watching the one who used to wear little dresses,wear long sleeves to cover the scars on her arms. It's for me and it weighs more on me than any teen should carry over her heart and shoulders. It hurts trying to hide it from youand watching you think the way you do. It hurts pushing that hand you give out time and time again away.

Mom I get it now,you love me and I love you.I'll say I hate you and you'll think
it isn't true.You'll see my scars and think it's your fault.You'll over fill my
plate and watch as I don't eat all the food while thinking I won't put that
clean fork down with a clank.I really get it and I'm sorry for it because I
don't think there's anything I can do.

I'm sorry for all the wrong things that I've done to you and Dad. Maybe I wasn't able to fully developed my maturity. Right now. I'm still hoping that we could forget the past and live the present and keep living the future.

I want my Mom to be happy this Mother's Day and i will make it happen.

I Love You so much Mom! Happy Mother's Day.

COMMENT ME PLEASE

2008-04-23T08:20:00.000-07:00

hi guys! i totally miss my blog and the people here and i was hoping that there are people HERE who also MISS ME that they would ask me if my summer was/will be okay? where did/will i spend my summer? duh?!such things like that.but there are only few people who noticed that I'm back and SOME of them are not the one that i expected to notice me.but i appreciate those people who really treated me as their friend.

but hey! its not yet too late to ask me.i know you guys miss me.
^_______^

...look I'm SQUEEZABLE.

copycat!

2008-03-01T22:25:00.000-08:00

You're imitating me, all I do was also done by you. You cannot be the second one, you always want to be "the one". It's always hurting me...all you do was stabbing me, you cannot be behind
you always try to change to be like me!

you have fallen so deep, you think that you're born to lead everybody...you have failed with all you've done so don't think about my heart
...it just bleeds.

you are really trying to be like me and all you do is imitate my every move. No one is better than you, even god is less than you(you think so). You cannot be alone so we have to be with you all the time. But I can't take it anymore...it is the end of us, there ain't friendship no more...

you can go away...but sorry 'cause I won't follow you...

new beginning

2008-02-21T03:55:00.000-08:00

A long time ago...An infinitely long time ago...We lived in the shadows of history. Countless are those who have experienced hardships,tragedies beyond description...it is under these circumstances, that now, the Angel of humans will finally emerge from the darkness.

We have LIVED ON FOR AGES...
SO LONG, THAT OUR COUNTLESS MEMORIES
HAVE LONG SINCE TURNED ASH-GRAY.

Life has given me one more change to live....So as long as i live i will love this man and care for him as the end of time shall, never come to take him away from me.
We will rise but to the end there always be a new start♥

2008-02-21T03:40:00.001-08:00

gosh! i can't find time in uploading and scanning my pictures on the PC. siiiiiyeeet... :]
maybe i'll post them some other time. NO TIME for tagging yet. but i'll find some time for your guyz. LOVES&HUGGIES! *muah*

감사합니다

this will be my night.

2008-02-15T14:41:00.000-08:00

PROM!!!

gosh! so excited tonight. its all perfect.
♥ beautiful dress
♥ gorgeous hair-do
♥ pretty make-up
♥ good venue
♥ long time
♥ super gwapong date
♥ super gandang ME
♥ friends
♥ my digicam
♥ perfume
♥ glitter sandals
♥ shining accessories
what could i forget? hmmm...its just PERFECT.

P.S.
Belated Happy Hearts Day to all. its not late pa naman diba? I'm just 1 day late. :] i hope you all had a great time. hmmm...kuwento niyo naman mga ate at kuya kung ano nangyari sa mga dates niyo with you special somenes or even with your family kung wala kayong mga gf/bf.
MINE? hmmm.meron bah? hehehe.of course. we went to the sea wall and we had dinner there...napaka-romantic haaaay...mas lalo akong nain-love sakanya that day...hehehe...and he gave me a ring...pareho kami.parang wedding ring namin haha...after namin mag-dinner he drive me home and yeah he kissed me after i go inside the house. :] (sweet) un lang.
so happy with my bf.

prom HAIR-do!!!

2008-02-03T02:03:00.000-08:00

this is my first choice...and i love it...its gorgeous right? ^_^
너무 예뻐요 - she's so pretty

i really don't want to mess my first prom night...I'm so bushed thinking about different and appealing hairstyles so i'll look attractive and pretty. :]

grrrr...any suggestions from my kuya's and ate's here?

hmmm...i already have my gown, shining-glittering heels, make-up plan...yah! just the hair! urgh! i know...its so much. too much attention! here are another styles:

there you go...dami noh? that's why I'm so confused!!! it looks all pretty!!!
PLEASE...help me choose...i need suggestions...
Deadliest DEADLINE: when you get on my page...please...
our prom is on Feb.16, 2008.
Thank you in advance sa mga magbibigay ng advice.

포옹-cuddies!

Einstein's theory before his break up with his girlfriend...

2008-02-01T03:41:00.000-08:00

I know we are also matter, we can't occupy the same space at the same time that's why we can't reach the same race, like parallel lines, can't meet at a common point...their verbs are not correct, all of the subjects are affected, they have reached my boiling point
now my brain is in congealing point right now...
Why can't some people be so sensitive? Where is the theory action and reaction? I can't see the luminous light or did just the burner lose its flame? I digested all their words, dissected all its meanings and the conclusion is so close but the hypothesis is still the one standing.

Every night they corrupt my brain and now, 70% percent of it is indifferent. They were the 14th planet of the solar system and so close to discovery but yet so far away. Did they say the world is round?

That's why we're still in the same floor
No matter how far we go we are back to were we started
I think I should call Ptolemy and ask for help...

I guess I'll never comprehend the mathematics of this metaphysics can't explain its movement because we're opposite in meaning but same in charge that's why we will never form a bond no matter what...Their electron negativity is annoying me, my neutrons are fading, my forces are shaking and now I'm losing all the elements I needed to stable the equation though I know it discolored. Like any other scientist I have no sleep, not much to eat, using my mind all the time to find the formula that we both need...Well I guess the carbon is so much in number, oxygen decreased and became under, that's why we are suffocating reasons why we are struggling.

Theoretically speaking: "accepting and moving on"
Easy to hear and easy to say.

Application of the theory:
Simply means
"Die first
And try to live again."

Celeb fancies

2008-01-29T06:48:00.000-08:00

So big deal if your a million zillion air, so what if your famous. who cares that your miserable only cause your spoiled rotten.
everyone would rather be in your shoes than their own.

whoooosh!

2008-01-11T03:16:00.000-08:00

yeeeeeeey! back to blogging now!!! hahaha..oh well i was so busy at school and i can't think about stuff to write in my blog as in "BLAH BLAH BLAH".

i think i'm going to delete this blog...seems like nobody's concern...huhuhuhu....
:'(

I'm just sensing the emotion

2008-01-05T07:46:00.000-08:00

I have tasted the emotion, I have fallen on it's rugged terrain
I have bruised and scarred and lamented over its jagged tug
I have tasted moments of giving up, of giving in, of throwing down
I have been weakened, battered and tested
........But I will not let this defeat me
I have heard the words, the thoughts, inside and outside of my head
I have swallowed and choked and chewed the emotion
I have heard its lulling voice, its capture, its trap
I have bled from my ears, from the impounding sound
........But I will not let go in this lullaby

I have seen the emotion, its deceit, its aesthetically pleasing facade
I have run towards it, run from it and run head-on into its web
I have seem the emotion, its all its false beauty and been drawn to it
I have been chosen, hooked and reeled in
........But I will wait patiently until I can escape

I have felt the emotion, embraced its sensual touch surrounding me
I have been squeezed and restricted and confined in its nature
I have felt the emotion, felt the loss of my will, of my drive, of my passion
I have wounds of anguish and agony that ride on my back
........But I am not ready to fall down
I am stuck in the endless webs of jealousy, the never-ending tangle
I have been unwillingly clung to its silk and left to crumble
I am stuck in the endless webs of resentment, the never-ending tangle
Where I have felt the emotion, heard the emotion and seen the emotion
........For all I know the emotion is me
But I. Am not. The emotion

duh?

2008-01-05T07:39:00.000-08:00

am i really a BITCH? why do people hate me that much? or the were just jealous of me...

for all my haters...just GET A LIFE!

weeeee....I'm BACK!!!!!^_^

2008-01-04T02:56:00.000-08:00

gosh! i was so exhausted from provincial life! bwahahahaha...i was so excited to go back in the city...so....right now...i'm back....weeeeeee!!! but i'm still tired so i got to have some rest...hmmm...GTG now....^_^ miss you all here...! *hugs* talk to you tomorrow...=)

Christmas and New Year

2007-12-21T06:19:00.000-08:00

BRB

gosh! vacation sa province na naman mode koh...haha! but i really miss my friends there so i'll be gone for 2weeks...

i will miss you guyz!....mwah! *hugs*

i just...

2007-12-20T02:44:00.000-08:00

Where do I start to tell you? How do I find the right words? When you were the one to choose, will I even have a chance to say.

I miss you baby! I miss you so so much!!!

When will he find out? Wish he'd just pick up the phone and call me and we would talk all night.
I never got the chance to shout and mean every word I say.
I miss you baby.

What will it take to let him know? I feel like there will never be a way to say every word that i want. Why is he always hiding low? Does he even think that its hard for me to say every word? There's just no way to tell him now.

I NEED TO TALK TO YOU.
I NEED TO SPEAK WITH YOU.
I NEED TO KNOW WHY YOU CAN'T JUST LISTEN TO WHAT I TELL YOU.

Every day I spent with him is in and out of my mind, its taking to much space that is why I wish we're always together. All those things we said are replayed over and over, no way to mute my head but it just flows through my mind.

Everything ends...true?

2007-12-14T01:57:00.000-08:00

Every story, has a beginning,
and an ending.

Every friendship, starts with a hello,
and ends with a goodbye.

Every relationship, starts with a kiss,
and ends with a "I'm Sorry".

But no matter how many times,
you say "I'm sorry"

My heart will always,
be broken.

-rejn♥

2007-12-12T16:41:00.000-08:00

BUSY MODE
....hope to talk to you soon...
love you guyz!!!
*hugs*

I want...

2007-11-29T06:42:00.000-08:00

I want to scream at the the top of my lungs...cry a ocean full of tears, run a mile a second and kill all of my fears...
I want to breath in a breathe of danger, crush the feeling of love, vanish the sight of pain throw-up over and over again.

I want to be another person, a new life is what i need, I want to be selfish...filled with hate and greed. I want to beat the toughest person and drain a beating heart...take that dumb bi*** and rip her soul apart. I want him to feel my pain of being alone. Being told your loved
but never really shown. I want revenge at its fullest compassion can go to hell. I want him to cry
at the sound of my throbbing bell. I need the feel of hate. I cherish the feeling of chase. I want her to remove her stupid makeup, revealing her ugly frigged face. I want him to loose control
to feel the rush of a fight. Frig I'm so angry.
I could keep this up all night.

2007-11-24T17:23:00.000-08:00

He might be my Prince Charming but I may not be his Cinderella

at last....huhuhu

2007-11-24T15:04:00.000-08:00

yipeeee!!! I'm happy kase nacancel ang project namin sa Filipino subject nami (making a movie), kaya lang I'm soooooo disappointed with the other students, because some of their parent are complaining because(I'm not sure if this was really the reason why our project was canceled...its only my conclusions) some of the students are hiring a PROFESSIONAL director/cameraman and some of them went out of town for their shooting even if our teacher said that the place for our shooting must be taken ONLY INSIDE THE SCHOOL OR OUTSIDE BUT NOT SO FAR FROM DAVAO CITY. That statement was explained to us by our teacher but some of the students didn't listen maybe that is why their parents complained on what they were doing...

me and my group mates in our project was so mad when we heard Sir Albarico's(our Filipino teacher and ADVISER) voice, its like he had a big problem, he was crying...we thought he was okay but when we asked him he said nothing. When we got his message that our project was canceled it was like duh! pinaghirapan naming gumawa ng script! pinaghirapan naming gumawa ng story and then all our efforts, GONE! just because of some of ------ students! grrrrrrr!!!

huhuhuhuhu

i just wish our adviser would be okay soon and his smiling face will go back...
WE LOVE YOU SIR ALBARICO and we are SORRY..

BUSY!!!

2007-11-22T05:21:00.000-08:00

gosh! another semester has come and the projects are overflowing!!! the projects are blowing my head....grrrrr!!! lalong-lalo na ang project sa FILIPINO subject...we are about to make a movie about Christmas...and duh! we're not PROFESSIONALS and the teacher is so demanding!!! my parents are complaining kase gabing-gabi na ako kung umuwi because of SHOOTING...haaaaaay...

i'll be busy until the 1st week of December kaya i'll not be on for few days...i'll miss my ate's and kuya's!!! huhuhuhu...

i'll talk to you when i have a chance...*hugs*

BRAIN S.P.A.M.

2007-11-18T04:07:00.000-08:00

Sitting here, I recall a question ''When was the last time you did something crazy??''
Cute Girl, strange. Am I "stuck in the Jungle"? Yeah. Maybe. Does size matter? OH YEAH.
ANYWAY...Conversation puts no knowledge in my head just questions. Should I test the black waters again?? Strictly For Comparison...Of Course, truly, I do not feel like i belong in any group
I'm me...REJN! just me. Grey. In between color

NO TITLE

I don't really eat, just live. Am I alive? Nah, Toxin's since my age was 13. Now what? Silly....Pure Craziness. I see myself alone. So I block it all out...

BUT FOREVER STILL JUMPING IN HEAD FIRST

my blood

2007-11-16T03:54:00.000-08:00

Suicide temptations over run my head,
i as i bring the blade to my wrist,
i watch it cut through my skin with deep familiarity,
i watch slowly as i see the blood pour,
just let it drip drip drip....
then i realized, after Ive lost to much blood to go back,
no one can ever replace me,
Not even darkness...

-Cerisa Aiva Rejn-
♥

when was the last time...

2007-11-16T03:29:00.001-08:00

When was the last time you sent me a text just to say, "I love you! Have a great day...And don't forget to show-off that beautiful smile?"

When was the last time you told me I was beautiful?
When was the last time you told me that I was the best thing that had ever happened to you?
When was the last time you called me randomly to say that you couldn't stop thinking about me?
When was the last time that you initiated cuddle time, a hug, a kiss, or a caress?
When was the last time that you told me you loved me without first being prompted by me?
When was the last time that you told me thank you...for all that you do?

I wish I could say that the day it all stopped was the day you broke my heart, but those missing gestures had stopped long ago.
Was it all so good in the beginning that I failed to see when it all stopped being that way?
I guess if I can't remember those last times it maybe wasn't meant to be after all.
You somehow forgot how to love me, but somehow I can't seem to stop loving you...No matter how I try.
I need to remember those last times, those fond memories because right now all I can remember are the times that you didn't say or do those things. And I don't want to remember this last year with you as a waste of time.
One of these days I will stop and think when was the last time I missed you? And when I can't recall that day, is the day I know that I'm over you.

When was the last time?

2007-11-12T19:18:00.000-08:00

You look that way
He looks the other way
You start walking your way
and he starts walking his own way

You say "I Love You"
...but he didn't stop...he just keep on walking.

P.S. I'm still not over you =,(

2007-11-12T18:23:00.000-08:00

This song reminds me of the person whom i given up...but still my feelings for him will always stay inside my heart, locked up and i don't know where the key is for it to be open again...♥

What's up
I know we haven't spoken for a while
But I was thinking bout you and it kinda made me smile
So many things to say
Need to put them in a letter
Thought it might be easier
The words might come out better

How's your mother
How's your little brother
Does he still look just like you
So many things I want to know the answer to
Wish I could press rewind
And rewrite every line
To the story of me and you

[Chorus]
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you off my mind
But it don't get no better as each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothing to lose
Hope to here from you soon
PS I'm still not over you

Excuse me
I really didn't mean to ramble on
But there's a lot of feelings
That remain since you've been gone
I guess you thought that I
Would've put it all behind me
But it seems there's always something right there to remind me

Like a silly joke or something on the TV
Boy it ain't easy
When I here our song I get that same old feeling
Wish I could press rewind
Turn back the hands of time
And I shouldn't be telling you

[Chorus]
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you off my mind
But it don't get no better as each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothing to lose
Hope to here from you soon
PS I'm still not over you

you-ou-ou
(still not over you)

Did you know I kept all of your pictures
Don't have the strength to part with them yet
(oh no)
Tried to erase the way your kisses taste
But some things a girl could never forget

[Chorus]
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you off my mind
But it don't get no better as each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothing to lose
Hope to here from you soon
PS I'm still not over you

(Still not over you)
Don't you know how I tried to forget you

[Chorus fade]
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you off my mind
But it don't get no better as each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothing to lose
Hope to here from you soon
PS I'm still not over you

-i still and always LOVE you my baby Pipao...
P.S.
I'm still not over you♥

BFF problem

2007-11-11T20:59:00.000-08:00

hahaaaaayyy...me and my friends had a fight last Friday. Right now...i don't know what to do if i would apologize to them or ako pa ang mag apologize sa kanila.

what was the reason?

Monday, November 4, me and my friends are talking about a secret of one of my classmates...and then they were denying that they didn't really actually knew who was the crush/suitor/boyfriend of my classmate. so i believe them...then last friday we were talking at the corridor in our school and then the topic about "my classmate's crush/suitor/boyfriend" was opened again...but that time one of my friends mouth slipped and she said the name of the guy who was the crush/suitor/boyfriend of my classmate without thinking na hindi ko alam at nasabi ng isa sa mga kaibigan ko ang pangalan ng guy so i got mad...because if that sort of thing tinatago na nila sa akin ano pa kaya sa ibang bagay.

i know na nagiging praning ako because of that...i just don't want my friends to hide secrets from me because I'm there friend and they know that they can trust me at alam ko rin that i can trust them that is why i always share my secrets to them even those that is very confidential but then they blew it off...noon pa...alam ko na marami na silang tinatago sa akin but then I'm making myself blind to those things that's why everytime i feel that they are keeping something from me, my trust in them are fading.

all this time...I'm asking myself if i they were true to me and i keep on making friends with them even though i see myself looking stupid in front of others.

but for now...i just want to stay out of their way in case magkaroon narin sila ng tiwala sa akin.

don't...please

2007-11-10T17:09:00.000-08:00

So is there a hope that I can convince you to stay as well? I know your going through a lot, and life just seems so impossible, but when I was so low, lower than ever, you where there to open my eyes, and I'm glad you did.

why?

...because I swear that if you didn't save me when you did, that I'd slipped away,so far away, that if I kept going on like this, that I would taken my life. I'm serious though, so this is to you! I'm here now and will be as long as I live, only to say that I'm the one who will try day in and day out to save your cherished soul, my friend, please rethink what your thinking about doing...yeah! Depression and dramatic moments can slowly kill you, leaving you helpless and lost.
Without a clear vision,everything grows dark and sad, pain consumes you,and you feel like you can't get away,like your locked up,but even though you say its for the best, your hurting more people than you think........

...

2007-10-28T17:57:00.000-07:00

I'm in the world of
BOREDOM

butterflies

2007-10-26T05:32:00.000-07:00

Those things i felt so alive inside me are now just dead and bitter. Those butterflies inside I use to feel are not flying anymore. You cut their wings like you cut mine please tell me how you felt. They're dead like my hope is dead for you without you those butterflies inside me are so damn dead. Sometimes I feel a little twinkle down inside me and other times I think that I'm just sick, so sick and tires of all your stupid lies. You make me feel so sick it hurts, those butterflies inside I use to feel are not flying anymore. you cut their wings like you cut mine please tell me how you felt. They're dead like my hope is dead for you, without you those butterflies inside me are so damn dead.

please tell me how you felt... was it any good?

Tell me how you felt when you broke my heart? Those butterflies are so damn dead.

BIRTHDAY GIRL

2007-10-26T04:47:00.000-07:00

I've been breathing since October 29, 1992 with my name given to me by my parents as

Cerisa Aiva Rejn Raagas Escarian

As the years passed, this girl have experienced lots of good and bad stuff and she's already felt love, hate, jealousy, happiness, and anger.

I'm still in my journey of life and exploring it with its people who are unknown for me. I want to enjoy my teenage years and hoping someday, when i become an adult, i will marry a guy who will take care of me and the right prince charming. actually, I'm happy with my life right now but still i want to know more and know what my purpose really is.

On the 29th of October in this year i will be a 15 year old young adult, not anymore a clumsy and cry baby girl, i will try to act more mature and be more matured.

I realized, as i become older, i will just remember my old days when i was a little baby and everyone was looking at me as if I'm an angel and then i became a sassy girl at the age of 5-10 and i just knew that i had a crush on some one (i still remember my first crush^_^) and then when I'm at the age of 13 when i first start to act and feel like I'm really a teenager until i had my first BF, first kiss, first hug and first gift from my special someone (aaaaaaawwwww).

Now, i have my friends from my old days and in the present, i have my BABY PIPAO whom i had a relationship for 1 year until now, and my family, my parents whose always there for me back when i was still a baby, "I'M HAPPY WITH MY LIFE NOW!!!"

wishing myself to be blessed even i have sinned and to have a very long life to spend with my love ones.♥

it only means i'm NOT willing to wait for the right one

2007-10-11T01:49:00.000-07:00

When I was just a little girl, my mama used to tuck me into bed, and she'd read me a story.
It always was about a princess in distress and how a guy would save her and end up with the glory. I'd lie in bed and think about the person that I wanted to be, then one day I realized the fairy tale life wasn't for me.

I don't want to be like Cinderella, sitting in a dark, cold and has a dusty cellar, waiting for somebody to come and set me free. I don't want to be like someone waiting for a handsome prince to come and save me on a horse of white unless somebody's on my side. I don't wanna be
no one else.

NO! NO! NO!
I'd rather rescue myself.

Someday I'm gonna find someone who wants my soul, heart and mind, whose not afraid to show that he loves me, somebody who will understand I'm happy just the way I am.

I don't need nobody taking care of me.

I will be there for him just as strong as he will be there for me, when i get myself then it has got to be an equal thing. I can slay my own dragons. I can dream my own dreams, my knight in shining armor is ME. So I'm gonna set me free.

I don't wanna be like CINDERELLA

im just not happy

2007-10-05T05:09:00.000-07:00

There you go again,talking cinematic...You're charming, you got everybody starstruck. I know, how you always seem to go for the obvious, instead of me you got another one.
You'd be the right guy and I'd be the best friend that you'd fall in love with. In the end we'd be laughing watching the sunset fade to black and show the names and play the happy song.
When you call me I can hear it in you voice...

...oh sure,you want to see me and tell me all about her

I'll be acting through my tears guess you'll never know that I should win an Oscar for this scene. Wish I could tell you there's a twist some kind of hero in disguise and were together, it's for real, NOT PLAYING. wish I could tell you there's a kiss, like something more than in my mind.

I see, it could be amazing

bye-bye

2007-09-20T18:37:00.001-07:00

i can't remember when did we had our first fight...but i clearly remember when is our last fight because its just yesterday.
i will not tell what was the fight all about but it was just really a small thing. every time we argue, i can see my self already crying but I'm trying to control my emotions not to show because i know when i start crying in front of him he will just ignore it...

will i let him go?
most of our fights really makes me think of breaking up with him but when i think of it...i just can't help but cry!!! yes! i try to break up with him, but i just CAN'T say those words!!! maybe i really do love him...because i just can't let him go that easy.o^-^o

hindi ko siya kayang mawala.!!!

why is it so hard for me to let him go even if we always fight and we know that both of us are hurt by this relationship?
oo nga...why is it hard for me to let go of his hands!!! but in my ex-bf...i just let him go and i move on easily but why in my present, i just can't help it...i can't help falling! is it because I'm already falling for him deeper than i expected? and for him, I'm doing things that i can't in my past boyfriend. its not that i don't want to love him, its just I DON'T WANT TO LOVE HIM SO MUCH!!! because i almost forgot to spend time for my friends and my family...i keep on thinking both of us together ALWAYS!!!

bad ba yung ganon?

i just hope that I'm not making a mistake for loving him this much and i hope i will not be saying this someday "sana hindi ko nalang binigay lahat ng oras ko sakanya."

first KISS?

2007-09-07T05:16:00.000-07:00

Who is you're first KISS?
Where did you had your first KISS?
When is your first KISS?
What did you do when you had your first KISS?
How did the two of you feel when you had your first KISS?

What, where, when is the last time you had your first KISS?

funny St. Thomas class

2007-09-07T03:25:00.000-07:00

THESE PICTURES ARE REALLY STOLEN

Me and my friend Alberto have nothing to do sometimes if we have boring classes so we make fun of those people who look funny and those people who are "DAY DREAMING". But these pictures that I'm showing you right now are from Allen's cellphone.

UNSA DAW?!!

This pictures are taken inside our classroom where there are people who are sooo bored that they can only do something that can make them look stupid(in a good way) because of their stolen photos.

In our classroom we really respect each other...

...but in the time of laughing we just can't help it to make fun of each other.

2007-09-07T02:55:00.000-07:00

from left2right: its me, dairwin and yen2.

We really had classes here but the teachers are not attending our class because they are busy in the DACS competition. They are busy going to other schools to cheer our team.

Whooooooo!!! GO ASSUMPTION!!!

Anyways, we got some different photos in this day.

We are having a "photo shoot"(kuno) in our class room...hehehehehe...
We had some "stolen pictures" or whatever(*LOL*) and theres a photo where we pretend as the characters of the movie "A Love Story" (we really look stupid).
Thanks to our photographer:
Allen Glen Soriano

In this picture(above), dairwin seems to be so close to yen2(LOL), it looks like he's going to kiss her(bwahahahahahaha) and i really look stupid here!!! I'm SOOO OUT OF PLACE(boink!).

Well...its really fun to have a MOMENT^_^

2007-09-01T18:40:00.000-07:00

Bad feelings lead to bad cases, bad cases lead to sad moments,
sad moments lead to tragic memories.

-xoxo-

2007-09-01T00:11:00.000-07:00

You look that way,

He looks the other way,

You start walking your way,

And he starts walking his way,

You say i love you,
But he doesn't stop he just keeps on walking...

-_-PerfecT-_-

2007-08-31T23:25:00.000-07:00

You're just so PERFECT why you cant see

Look at what you've done to me

You've made me laugh made me smile

With the look thats in your eyes

But you just don't realize
Just how much you mean to me

How important you are in my life

Each night before I go to sleep
I make just one wish and that
Is for you to be here with me

I wonder if he feels the same way
I wonder if we could ever be together
Then I could get my one true kiss
But at the moment its just a dream
Because I know he doesn't feel like this

MY WORLD

2007-08-31T22:13:00.000-07:00

My hands are trembling with fear
I'm so petrified of tomorrow
And what it might bring
For nothing is what it is anymore
And I am not who I am.

My eyes are red and raw from crying
I just feel so exhausted and miserable
Like I have nothing left to offer
And I know nobody could understand that
So I don't say a word.

My head is throbbing, I can't think straight
There are ghosts haunting me
Screaming horrible things
While laughing and pointing
And they won't leave me alone.

My heart feels empty
I don't belong anywhere
I don't enjoy anything anymore
There's nothing to look forward to
There's no hope.

My world has fallen apart
It collapsed at my feet
There's nothing left
So It's time to leave, get out of here
And end it all right now.