Thursday, November 29, 2007
I want...

I want to scream at the the top of my lungs...cry a ocean full of tears, run a mile a second and kill all of my fears...
I want to breath in a breathe of danger, crush the feeling of love, vanish the sight of pain throw-up over and over again.

I want to be another person, a new life is what i need, I want to be selfish...filled with hate and greed. I want to beat the toughest person and drain a beating heart...take that dumb bi*** and rip her soul apart. I want him to feel my pain of being alone. Being told your loved
but never really shown. I want revenge at its fullest compassion can go to hell. I want him to cry
at the sound of my throbbing bell. I need the feel of hate. I cherish the feeling of chase. I want her to remove her stupid makeup, revealing her ugly frigged face. I want him to loose control
to feel the rush of a fight. Frig I'm so angry.
I could keep this up all night.

Saturday, November 24, 2007

at last....huhuhu

yipeeee!!! I'm happy kase nacancel ang project namin sa Filipino subject nami (making a movie), kaya lang I'm soooooo disappointed with the other students, because some of their parent are complaining because(I'm not sure if this was really the reason why our project was canceled...its only my conclusions) some of the students are hiring a PROFESSIONAL director/cameraman and some of them went out of town for their shooting even if our teacher said that the place for our shooting must be taken ONLY INSIDE THE SCHOOL OR OUTSIDE BUT NOT SO FAR FROM DAVAO CITY. That statement was explained to us by our teacher but some of the students didn't listen maybe that is why their parents complained on what they were doing...

me and my group mates in our project was so mad when we heard Sir Albarico's(our Filipino teacher and ADVISER) voice, its like he had a big problem, he was crying...we thought he was okay but when we asked him he said nothing. When we got his message that our project was canceled it was like duh! pinaghirapan naming gumawa ng script! pinaghirapan naming gumawa ng story and then all our efforts, GONE! just because of some of ------ students! grrrrrrr!!!

huhuhuhuhu

i just wish our adviser would be okay soon and his smiling face will go back...
WE LOVE YOU SIR ALBARICO and we are SORRY..

Thursday, November 22, 2007
BUSY!!!

Sunday, November 18, 2007
BRAIN S.P.A.M.

Sitting here, I recall a question ''When was the last time you did something crazy??''
Cute Girl, strange. Am I "stuck in the Jungle"? Yeah. Maybe. Does size matter? OH YEAH.
ANYWAY...Conversation puts no knowledge in my head just questions. Should I test the black waters again?? Strictly For Comparison...Of Course, truly, I do not feel like i belong in any group
I'm me...REJN! just me. Grey. In between color
I don't really eat, just live. Am I alive? Nah, Toxin's since my age was 13. Now what? Silly....Pure Craziness. I see myself alone. So I block it all out...

BUT FOREVER STILL JUMPING IN HEAD FIRST

Friday, November 16, 2007
my blood

-Cerisa Aiva Rejn-
♥

when was the last time...

When was the last time you sent me a text just to say, "I love you! Have a great day...And don't forget to show-off that beautiful smile?"


I wish I could say that the day it all stopped was the day you broke my heart, but those missing gestures had stopped long ago.
Was it all so good in the beginning that I failed to see when it all stopped being that way?
I guess if I can't remember those last times it maybe wasn't meant to be after all.
You somehow forgot how to love me, but somehow I can't seem to stop loving you...No matter how I try.
I need to remember those last times, those fond memories because right now all I can remember are the times that you didn't say or do those things. And I don't want to remember this last year with you as a waste of time.
One of these days I will stop and think when was the last time I missed you? And when I can't recall that day, is the day I know that I'm over you.

When was the last time?

Monday, November 12, 2007

P.S. I'm still not over you =,(

This song reminds me of the person whom i given up...but still my feelings for him will always stay inside my heart, locked up and i don't know where the key is for it to be open again...♥

What's up

I know we haven't spoken for a while
But I was thinking bout you and it kinda made me smile
So many things to say
Need to put them in a letter
Thought it might be easier
The words might come out better

How's your mother
How's your little brother
Does he still look just like you
So many things I want to know the answer to
Wish I could press rewind
And rewrite every line
To the story of me and you

[Chorus]
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you off my mind
But it don't get no better as each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothing to lose
Hope to here from you soon
PS I'm still not over you

Excuse me
I really didn't mean to ramble on
But there's a lot of feelings
That remain since you've been gone
I guess you thought that I
Would've put it all behind me
But it seems there's always something right there to remind me

Like a silly joke or something on the TV
Boy it ain't easy
When I here our song I get that same old feeling
Wish I could press rewind
Turn back the hands of time
And I shouldn't be telling you


[Chorus]
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you off my mind
But it don't get no better as each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothing to lose
Hope to here from you soon
PS I'm still not over you

you-ou-ou
(still not over you)

Did you know I kept all of your pictures
Don't have the strength to part with them yet
(oh no)
Tried to erase the way your kisses taste
But some things a girl could never forget

[Chorus]
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you off my mind
But it don't get no better as each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothing to lose
Hope to here from you soon
PS I'm still not over you

(Still not over you)
Don't you know how I tried to forget you

[Chorus fade]
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you off my mind
But it don't get no better as each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothing to lose
Hope to here from you soon
PS I'm still not over you

-i still and always LOVE you my baby Pipao...
P.S.
I'm still not over you♥

Sunday, November 11, 2007
BFF problem

hahaaaaayyy...me and my friends had a fight last Friday. Right now...i don't know what to do if i would apologize to them or ako pa ang mag apologize sa kanila.

what was the reason?

Monday, November 4, me and my friends are talking about a secret of one of my classmates...and then they were denying that they didn't really actually knew who was the crush/suitor/boyfriend of my classmate. so i believe them...then last friday we were talking at the corridor in our school and then the topic about "my classmate's crush/suitor/boyfriend" was opened again...but that time one of my friends mouth slipped and she said the name of the guy who was the crush/suitor/boyfriend of my classmate without thinking na hindi ko alam at nasabi ng isa sa mga kaibigan ko ang pangalan ng guy so i got mad...because if that sort of thing tinatago na nila sa akin ano pa kaya sa ibang bagay.

i know na nagiging praning ako because of that...i just don't want my friends to hide secrets from me because I'm there friend and they know that they can trust me at alam ko rin that i can trust them that is why i always share my secrets to them even those that is very confidential but then they blew it off...noon pa...alam ko na marami na silang tinatago sa akin but then I'm making myself blind to those things that's why everytime i feel that they are keeping something from me, my trust in them are fading.

all this time...I'm asking myself if i they were true to me and i keep on making friends with them even though i see myself looking stupid in front of others.

but for now...i just want to stay out of their way in case magkaroon narin sila ng tiwala sa akin.

Saturday, November 10, 2007
don't...please

So is there a hope that I can convince you to stay as well? I know your going through a lot, and life just seems so impossible, but when I was so low, lower than ever, you where there to open my eyes, and I'm glad you did.

why?

...because I swear that if you didn't save me when you did, that I'd slipped away,so far away, that if I kept going on like this, that I would taken my life. I'm serious though, so this is to you! I'm here now and will be as long as I live, only to say that I'm the one who will try day in and day out to save your cherished soul, my friend, please rethink what your thinking about doing...yeah! Depression and dramatic moments can slowly kill you, leaving you helpless and lost.
Without a clear vision,everything grows dark and sad, pain consumes you,and you feel like you can't get away,like your locked up,but even though you say its for the best, your hurting more people than you think........